The Boys E03 Super Heroes are Commodities

The Boys e03 pushes Hughie’s quest for vengeance against A-Train forward, while doing some admirable world building. If the first episode was about Supes not acting heroically, and episode two was about how terrifying a world with Supes would be, The Boys e03 examines how they fit into the public eye.

One of the most powerful scenes in this episode is when Hughie returns home to get some fresh clothes. Posters of The Seven, and other heroes line his walls. While Hughie may not seem to notice the posters as he packs, I did. Seeing the superhero propaganda on his walls gave me an “Oh shit” moment. Because how awful would that be if you had posters and toys of the person that killed your girlfriend. The social implications are vast, and it is a wonder more people in the world don’t hate Supes.

When he does soak in the fact that he had an A-Train funko pop he tears the posters from the walls, and breaks whatever else he can. Hughie is in shock from the events of last episode. Destroying the merchandise offers Hughie a chance for catharsis. For me, this is the series at its best, and is definitely more what I expected from the start.

Starlight Makes a Choice in The Boys E03

The parallels between Starlight and Hughie also continue to develop, albeit in disparate fashion. Previously, Starlight got in trouble for performing a heroic act without permission from her corporate overlords at Vought who call her in for a meeting, possibly to fire her. However, they decide not to fire her. Instead, they bring in the marketing department to develop and sell an origin story. They also provide her with a new costume that she resists. The new costume is skimpy, with a plunging cleavage line. In short, it’s a woman’s superhero costume.

The image shows Starlight's new costume, which she wears in The Boys e03 despite it conflicting with her morals

Starlight tells Madeline Stillwell that she has a right to present her body however she wants. Madeline agrees, but says the only way Starlight gets to do that with The Seven is to wear the new costume.

The pain of the choice is clear on Emily Moriarty’s face as it runs a spectrum of nuanced facial expressions. The actress has really shined in the roll, portraying perfectly slide from idealism to cynicism. She looks sideways at the uniform, head tilted back, shoulders up. Her body language expresses resistance to the idea. However, as she considers the offer more thoroughly, her shoulders relax in resignation, and her head slumps. She exchanges exploitation for membership, and takes another step further from her moral center. Her quote to Hughie at the big race says it all, “I don’t know if they really want you to be a hero. I think they just want you to look like one.”

The Boys E03 Revenge is the Name of the Game

For his apart, Hughie is drunk on the power he felt when he pressed the button on the bomb. He tells Mr. Milk–a new addition to the team–about it, and MM nods. Then, he warns Hughie about taking it too far. But for Hughie. there is no such thing as taking it too far. A-Train killed his woman and disrupted his life. Nothing short of total vengeance will suffice.

To this effect, Frenchie, Butcher, Hughie, and Mr. Milk pay a visit to Popclaw. Popclaw is A-Train’s girlfriend. MM and Hughie bug her apartment, and as they leave they bump into A-Train. Hughie stares at the Supes who killed his girlfriend, waiting for acknowledgement. There is a moment of silence which A-Train asks if Hughie wants an autograph. Instead of keeping quiet and just moving on, Hughie says he thinks they’ve met before. A stupid thing to do.

I understand that Hughie is pissed A-Train can’t even pay him the courtesy of remembering him. Plus, he is still riding the adrenaline wave. But, this was stupid and could have gotten both Hughie and MM killed. Revenge is their purpose, but they need to be smart about it. Hughie forgot that for a moment.

Homelander and Queen Maeve

This episode also brings us our first glimpse of Queen Maeve in action, and she kicks ass. Then she has a team-up with Homelander, and things go less well. The series has been hinting that Homelander is a violent psychopath with amazing powers. The Boys E03 makes that clear. Homelander is the kind of guy who will punch through a man’s chest, and then get mad at the dead guy for getting blood on his gloves. Homelander is the kind of guy who will threaten an ex-girlfriend with death if she ever moves on. Murderous Superman is not necessarily a new concept, especially not in comics, but it is something we haven’t seen a lot of in movies and TV.

Power Corrupts and So Does Compound V

By establishing Homelander as the biggest prick of them all because he’s the most powerful, the show subverts Superman. And in so doing, it provides a fresh take on the superhero genre in the medium of the screen. If the biggest hero can be a villain, then there are no heroes. Everyone is already a villain, or one in waiting. Even Starlight has slipped. She wants to be part of The Seven so badly that she’s willing to compromise her values. No one is safe from the corrupting influence of Supes.

How far Starlight will go to maintain her position in The Seven is a question worth asking. On one hand, similar to Hughie, it seems that she will do anything to be a member. On the other hand, when she gets leered at and told to show her tits, there is a flash of indecision. I expect the show will delve deeper into this aspect of the plot and her character, but I don’t expect her to abandon The Seven.

Finally, and returning to the idea of superhero marketing and image, A-Train has a big race. If he loses, he is out of The Seven. Here is yet another instance of people doing whatever it takes to be part of the biggest superhero club around. Only in the case of A-Train that action is to take superhero steroids, also known as Compound V. The drug greatly enhances super abilities, but the user loses some control. A-Train was on V when he ran through Robin.

This episode is the best one so far. Have you seen it? What are your thoghts? Let me know in the comments.

The Boys E02 Superheroes are Terrifying

Now this is more like it. The Boys E02 provides what I felt the first episode lacked, enough satire to fully subvert genre expectations. By focusing on aspects other than over the top violence, this episode manages to highlight the social problems caused by Supes. Granted, the first episode did this to a degree. After all, Robin’s death is the driving force behind Hughie’s quest for vengeance against A-Train.

Additionally, this episode builds on the social impact Supes. First, we see A-Train visiting a child with terminal cancer. A-Train arrives, all smiles and arrogance. Then, the kids says he wanted Translucent because Translucent is his hero. A-Train tells the kid he’ll teach him how to run when he gets better. The child does not take these words well. The whole scene is awkward and hilarious in a terrible way.

The picture shows Homelander from the Boys S02

The Boys E02 focuses mostly on Homelander as well as the fallout from episode one. Again, I am going to be as spoiler-free as possible in this review. Still, there might be some spoilery things in here. If you care, there’s your warning.

The choice to develop Homelander is a wise one. As the Superman analogue, he sets up a myriad of expectations for the audience. Such expectations should already be shifting after his actions in E01, but we still don’t know much about him. Here, we learn that he wants to be more than just a pretty face, and also that there is some darkness in him, and is the darkness that makes him scary. From when we learn of Homelander’s darkness until the end of the episode, his presence looms large. He shifts from the typical Superman archetype, to something reminiscent of JMS’s version of Hyperion in Supreme Power.

The Boys E02 There Are No Heroes Only Supes

Meanwhile, Hughie and Butcher are still trying to resolve their situation. The trouble is, they don’t have any good options. This story line pushes Hughie closer to the edge as the time to make a choice draws near. We learn that the Butcher is a mercenary who specializes in subduing Supes. Admittedly, I found the beats in this plot line a little too predictable. I understand the need for these scenes, and they do a lot of good work portraying Hugie’s struggle. Yet, the outcome never really seemed in doubt.

We also learn more about how fighting crime for the Vought corporation works. And, I would say, it works about the way you’d expect. Vought uses the most advanced technology to predict where crimes will occur, and then they send their heroes there. It’s all very efficient, but doesn’t lend itself to feeling heroic.

I appreciate this look at how the sponsorship works. On one hand, it s not surprising. If superheroes did exist and they had corporate sponsors, thing would most likely operate in this fashion.

Character Studies

The subversion of the Superman type in the form of Homelander, along with the corporate control aspect play into the theme of The Boys E02: the loss of innocence. In fact, that seems to be the overall series theme. We see this in the general portrayal of Supes in this episode, as well as the characters of Hughie and Starlight.

Each character’s story contains darkness and difficult choices. They both death with pain and loss of innocence, though in very different ways. Hughie has access to a support group. It’s dysfunctional and horrible and is going to get him in trouble, if not killed. He is grieving for Robin, and trying reconcile his need for vengeance with his need to maintain his innocence.

In contrast, Starlight processes her loss of innocence by asserting herself, and unleashing her anger against a couple of deserving assholes. She is alone and has no support structure. She can’t tell her mom for fear of disappointing her, and she has no friends. Starlight regaining some confidence is important for the character and the story. Plus, it gives us a chance to see a Supe actually doing something super heroic. Of course, she faces punishment for performing an unsanctioned Super activity, further driving home the point that there is no place for heroics in the superhero business. Plus Erin Moriarty kills it as the determined and near-desperate Starlight, infusing her performance with a contrast of nuanced emotion and bright-eyed optimism.

All in all, this episode was stronger than the first one, and I have hope that I will enjoy the show if they continue in this vein.

Have you seen The Boys E02? What did you think. Drop a line in the comments if you feel inclined.

The Boys E01 Superheroes Suck

The Boys e01 (The Name of the Game) introduces us to a world full of superheroes patrolling the streets and fighting crime. Only, these heroes are dicks, rapists, and criminals. Think of The Watchmen mixed with Squadron Supreme, and you may have some idea of what to expect. The series is based on the comic series co-created by Garth Ennis and Darick Robertson. I haven’t read the comic, and I don’t know if I will. This review refrains from spoilers by not describing events, but rather providing overall general impressions.

The Picture Shows the Seven, a team of superheroes in The Boys E01

Watching this series opening episode, I kept wondering what the joke was. The set up is straightforward enough: The Boys e01 exists in a world where people with super powers are part of daily life. From this premise, the show extrapolates that people with powers would be greedy dickheads. On one hand, this is always a fun idea. On the other hand, it’s only fun if there’s a punchline beyond Ha superheroes suck!

As the first episode, The Boys e01 delivers on establishing the world, characters, and tone. That world, however, is brutish and horrible. It is a world where costumed Supers, sponsored by the Vought corporation, can murder and rape and steal at will.

There is fridging and superhero on superhero rape, and it is all played seriously, which is good as these are serious topics. But, the episode doesn’t really explore these topics, rather treating them like the tropes they are. So, instead of providing viewers with something fresh, the episode leans heavily into traditional superhero conventions. I suppose I was looking for a bit of a bigger twist.

Did you watch The Boys e01? Are you planning to? If not, why are you even reading this? If you have, comment and let me know what you think.

All Roads End Here Apocalyptic Bleakness

All Roads End Here, a novel by David Moody is apocaylptic bleakness at a frantic pace. From the very start, the desperation of the world never fails to jump off the pages. Moody has created a cracked world in danger of splitting completely apart. In a nutshell, this novel is about a virus or some other afflction that turns many people into Haters. What’s a Hater? Hater used to be human, but now they have only the desire to destroy the Unchanged (non-Hater humans). If you think of the creatures in 28 Days Later, you’ll be on the right track. Only, the haters have some intelligence, and aren’t complete mindless brutes. Just mostly.

The picture shows the cover to All Roads End Here by David Moody. The cover is red and black

The book takes place in an English city, and the main character, Matthew Dunne, ha spent nearly three months in the wasteland. For three months, Matt survived by avoiding Hater patrols and sacrificing friends and acquaintances. His one goal: to get home to his girlfriend Jen. Matt’s willingness to do anything to get to Jen is noble, and provides motivation. However, keeping Jen safe seems to be his only reason for survival, which I find off-putting.

Finally, he reaches the city only to find it a Mad Max style warzone. Helicopters hover, strafing the hordes of Haters massing and attacking the city. Troops and bombers make appearances as well. The descriptions of the battles engage and excite, and there is a lot to like about this book in the early goings.

All Roads End Here Lacks Character

However, as the novel progresses and we see more of Matt and the people living at his house with his girlfriend, the excitement wears off. At least, that’s how it was for me. Moody writes excellent descriptions, and he builds a well realized world about to collapse. Unfortunately, he doesn’t populate that world with characters I care about, making it difficult to invest in the story.

When reading this type of novel, I find I need characters to latch onto. They don’t have to be sympathetic. Nevertheless, I like it when they aren’t complete assholes. And that is my biggest issue with All Roads End Here–I don’t like any of the characters. Actually, I can’t stand any of the characters. They could be real people, which is probably why I don’t like them. In a world where society has gone to shit, I need people I can root for and feel a connection with.

Did I root for Matt? Of course I did because he is the protagonist. Having Matt as the point of view character forces the reader to side with him, at least a little. He’s telling the story, and we want that story to continue. Therefore, we want him to live. At least for a little while.

For me, the novel became repetitious and lost a little bit of momentum for a stretch near the final third of the novel. Thankfully, it was a short stretch of pages, but it did solidify why the book wasn’t clicking for me. The reason I felt things were slowing down and becoming a slog is at that point I didn’t care about the characters. Even Matt. Once I accepted that, it was easy to finish the book.

Last Thoughts

Overall, I would say All Roads End Here is worth the read, especially if you like post-apocalyptic literature and genre pieces. It has some vivid descriptions and exciting set pieces. The battle-bus, and the waste management segments come quickly to mind.

My biggest issue was that I didn’t care if the characters lived or died. This isn’t Moody’s fault, simply a missed connection between reader and author. No one changed by the end of the proceedings, and I don’t find static characters particularly interesting.

Have you read this novel? If not, maybe give it a shot. As always, thanks for reading.

The Den New England Gothic Novel

The Den is a New England Gothic style novel by Abi Maxwell. It tells the story of two different families, each facing difficult choices and circumstances.

It begins with the sisters Jane and Henrietta, and their dysfunctional family. Henrietta, age 15, has started to rebel, smoking cigarettes, and having sex with her boyfriend. Jane, 12, spies on her sister as she desperately aches to get closer to her. It’s all very dramatic and high hysterics, but with a slightly modern spin on typical New England Gothic by adding in some other intrigues and red herrings, though I suppose these are hallmarks of works in the genre.

The Picture shows the cover of the Den a New England Gothic novel. There is a long haired girl sitting on a chair, looking over her shoulder.

In addition to the coming of age aspect of the first part of the novel, there are secrets galore in this book. Jane and Henrietta’s mother keeps a secret art studio in the attic. Plus, Henrietta is pregnant and sneaking around. These are not the only examples of secrecy in the Den, but to reveal them would spoil the surprises in this New England Gothic novel.

Instead of focusing too much on the events of the book, I want to focus on the structure. The novel has four different narrators: Jane and Henrietta who I discussed above, and Elspeth and Claire. Elspeth and Claire are two sisters with a connection to Henrietta and Jane. The two pairs of sisters mirror each other in action, story, and trauma. Henrietta and Elspeth, while not terribly strange, are somewhat odd names. On the other hand, Jane and Claire are relatively plain names. Beyond the names, though, there is the behavior. Henrietta and Elsbeth appear adventurous, independent, and sexual. Their sisters, however, are as steadfast women who stand by their families and run the danger of becoming spinsters. Clearly, these stories have a deep connection.

The Den New England Gothic Meets Today

Maxwell does an excellent job of weaving these disparate but connected tales into one clear vision. As I read this novel, I was mostly able to follow the threads and twists and turns. Sometimes, I admit, the text turned where I didn’t expect. I love that. Gothic literature, no matter the region, needs some good mystery and conspiracy. The Den provides that at just the right times and in just the right amounts.

As for the modern twist, Henrietta and Jane are alive in the 1990’s, and as such have phones, cars, the internet, etc… This provides us with a glimpse of how this genre and these stories are going to look as we move further away in time from the roots of these types of tales. However, The Den never feels fully modern due to Maxwell’s ability to maintain the style and features of New England Gothic writing. These include improbable coincidences, loss, forgiveness (or lack thereof), pain, family, coming-of-age, and sacrifice.

I thoroughly enjoyed this novel, and if you like Gothic style writing with a bit of modernization thrown in, you might like it too. Check it out. Thanks for reading and leave me a comment if you are so inclined.

It Chapter 2 Reaction–I’m Trying to be Open Minded

So the It Chapter 2 trailer came out, and my reaction is about what I expected. I love the book. It’s not perfect, but it is dark and scary and gross. The novel encapsulates a plethora of horror tropes, and adds to them in new ways. Truly, Kings was at his coked out best when he wrote it.

I am a fan of the original mini-series, though I admit it is far from perfect. The thing I felt the mini-series got right was the kids. The child actors buoy the first half, as do the writing, and of course Tim Curry’s Pennywise. Comparing Tim Curry to Bill SkarsgĂ„rd doesn’t interest me. They each bring their own ability to the role, and each does a good job, albeit in a different way.

The first installment of the remake offers some good scares, the basement being chief among them. Additionally, that film gives us the House on Neibolt Street, which was awesome. However, beyond that, the movie didn’t do much for me. I know a lot of people like it, and that’s fine,I am not here to tell you what you should or shouldn’t like (mostly). However, I am here to give you my It Chapter 2 trailer reaction.

As you may have guessed by now, the trailer left me wanting. I am trying to keep an open mind about it because I understand movies and novels are different media. Looking at the book and the film as separate entities is a good way to keep expectations low. Also, it helps take each on their own terms. The book will always be better, but that doesn’t mean the film won’t be enjoyable.

Why I have a lukewarm reaction to It Chapter 2

First, much like the first part, it feels very rote and by the numbers. Of course, the amount of horror tropes employed in the source material probably has something to do with this. Still, there doesn’t seem to be much of a fresh take on the horror, or the novel.

Don’t get me wrong, I would love a straight up adaptation. We won’t be getting that, which is fine. They are separate things. What I want from the films is for them to keep the spirit of the novel. I can’t say part one did that for me. And, it looks like part 2 will be very much in line with that.

Lest you think I am being a negative Nancy, there were some things about the trailer I liked. First, the house of mirrors sequence looks good. Pennywise is torturing Bill and threatening to kill that kid in front of him, which I hope happens. This scene is not in the novel, but torturing the adults is how Pennywise gets his kicks, so it’s fitting.

The picture shows James MacAvoy as Bill in It Chapter 2
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Also, I like how haggard Richie looks, as that captures how his adult self starts to unravel when he returns to Derry. And of course Skarsgard will be great as the titular monster.

All in all, I am not super stoked about this film. I want to be, and I will do my best to be open to liking it when I see it. This is just a trailer, after all, and we all know judging films by their trailers is silly. However, previews should make people excited for the film, and I am not there. I know many others are, and that’s okay. Disagreements are fine, and they are best when kept civil.

Shallow Creek Review Deep Scares in Short Stories

This is a review of Shallow Creek, a collection of short stories centering around the titular town. It will not focus on each individual story, but rather the overall feel. The premise of the collection is simple. Storgy, the publisher, provided the authors with ideas and characters to use to develop the town. This is an interesting technique because it allows the authors to write their own stories, and bring their own voices, but it also helps maintain collection cohesion.

This image shows the cover of Shallow Creek, a collection of short horror stories.

First, this collection of short horror stories presents a wide range of terrors and characters. The town itself has seen better days, as is often the case in such things. Once upon a time, it flourished, but now its downtown is dying, the Church is failing, and the whole place exists under a shadow. Many of the tales feature the same characters, but in different ways. For example, sometimes Krinkles the clown actually shows up and joins the story, and in others readers only encounter him as a face on a cereal box. This method adds a nice twist to the standard thematic collection.

Despite the disparate authors involved in the collection, there is a unified voice, or at least tone. Reading through it, I was never taken aback by shift in style. Each author manages to stay true to the overall tone of the tome while adding their own twist. I have read many short story collections, but seldom have I encountered one as thematically rich as this one.

Shallow Creek A Brief Review of a Few Stories

This review of Shallow Creek focuses on a couple stories rather than each individual story.

The first story I want to focus on is Pentameter by David Hartley. This is the story of Jud, a broken man. He is the lighthouse keeper, and only speaks and understand Pentameter. Initially, this focus on Jud’s speaking style seems like a gimmick, and it is something that could easily become grating. However, the story that emerges through poetic form is gruesome, creepy, and powerful. Could it have been told in a more traditional prose style? Of course, but the impact would have been lessened.

In addition to characterizing Jud with his mental tic, the pentameter immediately informs readers that they are in a weird story. Furthermore, it helps illustrate how disconnected from the world Jud is. As the story progresses, we see that he has a few worldly connections, a voice on a CB radio named Mike that feeds him instructions, and Sian, a teenager who seeks his friendship. At first, Sian doesn’t grasp the idea of using pentameter to communicate with Jud, but she quickly groks it and the two become fast friends. There is also the matter of Jud’s wife, who he talks to often but the reader doesn’t meet until the end of the tale.

All of these elements combine to create dread, which is what I want from a horror story. Tension builds as Mike gives Jud instructions to sabotage the carnival that has recently come to town. When each of these attempts fail, the stakes rise, and things become even tenser. The escalation with Mike mirrors how his relationship with Sian develops. One is destructive while the other has the potential to save him. The resolution of which is terrifying and inevitable.

Thematic Resonance

The other story I want to mention is Backwards by Adrian J. Walker. This tells the story of the town Sheriff, another broken man. He has been investigating a murder, to no avail. As a result, he has earned the ire of the town, as well as lost faith in himself. He wishes to be anywhere but Shallow Creek, but that seems unlikely.

This story is different from Pentameter, and the other stories in this collection as it has a sci-fi bend to it. However, thematically, it keeps to the core of the collection. It tells the story of broken people in a broken town. Trauma is one of the strongest threads that holds this collection together, and Backwards has trauma in spades. The Sheriff has to reckon with his failures, and inability to change his situation. This is relatable to readers, and a hallmark of good stories, horror or otherwise. Also, it echoes Jud’s situation in Pentameter, though the resolutions are quite different.

All in all, this is a good collection of horror stories held together with strong thematic elements. It explores flawed characters and their struggle to survive in an inhospitable town. Some the horrors found in the creek are supernatural, while others are human. Many of the tales are dark bloody, and brutal, while others are more subtle and psychological. Each story in this collection is grounded in a hyper-real world that never feels fake or unbelievable, which might be its biggest strength. Horror works best when it feels possible and probably, and Shallow Creek delivers on that front.

Thank you for reading. If this collection sounds up your alley, get it ASAP. It’s well worth your time.

Search For Alice Is a Fresh Twist on Fairy Tales

The Search for Alice, a novel by Amy Koto is a modern twist on Alice and Wonderland and fairy tales. It tells the story of 16 year old Kallie Bennet, a social outcast searching for ways to fit in. Well, kind of searching. Defining Kallie as someone in need of peer approval is not entirely accurate. Rather, she, like many of us at that age, is searching for her place in the world. Friendship and acceptance are of course part of that search.

The picture shows the cover for The Search for Alice novel

Unfortunately, due to her circumstances, Kallie doesn’t have the best options for friends. For one thing, she seems to be on the poorer side of the socioeconomic scale. For another thing, her mother is an abusive drunk, and neither of these things lend themselves to socializing. The one group of girls she does hang out with treat her more like a charity case rather than a friend. Amanda, the leader of the clique, is clearly in the ‘popular girl mold’ right down to the obsession with boys and money. She reminded me of Cordelia Chase from Buffy the Vampire slayer.

Kallie herself is bitter and angry and a loner. Though, she does still seek validation from Amanda on more than one occasion. Which makes sense; no matter who we are, there is always a time we want validation from others. Koto never presents Kallie as unlikable, despite how easy it would be. Kallie cries a lot, and complains a lot. Both of these traits are easy to overdo, but Koto walks the line nicely. She wants us to sympathize with Kallie, and she makes it easy to do so.

Search for Alice in a Twisted Wonderland

As you might expect from the title, the Search for Alice is a different take on Alice in Wonderland. In this version, Kallie sees Alice instead of the rabbit, and follows her into the strange world. However, things are much different than in the original tale, which is good. No one wants to read the same story as the original. Or, if they do, they can just read the original.

In this tale, Alice is an enigma. She appears to Kallie every once in a while, but never says anything. Furthermore, Kallie has an idea of what is going on because she has read the book, and is a child of the real world. This meta angle could become tiresome, but Koto never takes it that far. She always presents Kallie as uncertain of the world around her, even as she possesses some knowledge.

The novel is full of some good twists, turns, and character moments. Also, it is a quick read, not taking long to build momentum and not stopping until the end. It is the first in a series, so there is more to come. The second book is already out, in fact.

Overall, I really enjoyed this. The descriptions are visceral, and the action is tense. The language sometimes feels unsophisticated, but that’s okay. This novel is clearly meant for the YA crowd. That is not to say they can’t handle sophistication, but appropriate language for your audience is necessary.

If you enjoy fairy tales, Alice in Wonderland, and modern twist on old stories, then this book is for you. Purchase it here.

Have you read this one? Let me know what you thought in the comments. Or better yet, leave a review for Amy Koto on Goodreads or Amazon. Thanks for reading.

Finding a Way Out When Depression Strikes

I haven’t been doing so great lately. I’ve been depressed, and indulging too much in unhealthy habits. Also, I’ve been slacking on work, and giving into the urge to just lie in bed too much. When life gets like this, I often have trouble finding a way out, and I know I’m not the only one.

Depression is a funny beast in that you never know when it’s going to strike. This recent episode is a great example; I was doing fine until I wasn’t. What happened? I wish I could tell you. All I can say is that things were going swimmingly, and then one afternoon I went shopping and everything started falling apart. Standing in line, listening to the excellent Flight Risk Podcast, a feeling of dread overtook me. My stomach dropped and my eyes flooded with tears, which I quickly wiped away. Crying in a Chinese supermarket is nothing to be ashamed of, but it’s also not great.

After paying for my goods, I walked home and crawled into bed. At least, I put my groceries away first, a small thing, but something to be proud of nonetheless. For the next two and a half weeks, at least, my days consisted of work, junk-food, booze, and bed. These are not winning way of finding a way out of depression.

The image shows several wine bottles, which hinders finding a way out of depression
A collection of all the wine I drank last week. 7 bottles in 7 days. Not good for my health in any way.

How I am Finding a Way Out

I’ve taken some measures over the past few days in an attempt to break out of this deep darkness. I’ve started eating better, cutting out most of the junk-food in place of fruits and veggies. I love fruits and veggies, but when depression strikes, I find them difficult to eat. When the soul aches, I crave unhealthy junk, which is always a bad idea. Sure, greasy fast food burgers may taste good (they don’t, really), but they just add to the sadness.

In addition to attempting to change my eating habits, I have cut out the booze this week. I love to drink, but when finding a way out of depression, alcohol is not a good guide. Aside from being a depressant, it makes for sluggish mornings and unclear thinking. Furthermore, it is full of calories, which leads to weight gain, which can lead to more awful thoughts. It’s a vicious and terrible cycle.

I’ve also been trying to go for walks more. I haven’t necessarily been too successful on this front because of low energy levels, and it’s really hot here. But, I have at least made some effort, which is more than I’ve done recently. Walking has always been good for me. It gives me time and space to turn my mind off and clear the cobwebs. Of course, it also provides me time to overthink, something that is not always a benefit when dealing with depression. Still, it offers a way to get moving, gets me out of bed, and those have to be good things.

Moving Forward

The methods I am using for finding a way out of this funk I am in seem to be helping, but it’s still really early in the process. Almost anyone who’s suffered from depression can tell you there is no easy fix. Exercising and eating a proper diet can help, but they are not miracle cures. However, if we keep at them, and continue to build good habits, we can reinforce our defenses against this beast that drags us down. They can help us say no to the terrible and dangerous thoughts that rush through our minds.

By keeping our efforts up, we can show ourselves that we have worth, that we can accomplish things, and that we are not the scum depression calls us. To that end, I am going to keep my alcohol consumption to a minimum for a while, and I am going to keep eating fresh food. And, I am going to start writing more. I’ve already done this by starting a short story a couple days ago, and now by writing this blog post.

Battling depression is not easy, and it takes time, but I will continue to fight it. This battle is one I’ve been engaged in for most of my life, and I am not going to stop now.

Mental Health America link for those looking for help and resources for their depression.

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The Boar on Shudder Brings the Scares

The Boar is a fun creature feature with a cool monster. The premise is simple: a giant boar is terrorizing the Australian bush. As with all monster nature films, it is the characters and the action that matter the most. When watching films of this sort, the audience needs something to hold onto. Whether that hold is characters you care about, or characters you want to see die doesn’t matter.

This picture shows the movie poster for The Boar.

In a rare move, the likeable characters outnumber the unlikable ones, which makes it even more tense when danger rears its ugly head. The only truly unlikable named character was Robbie, a twenty-something douche bag. Actually, he wasn’t terrible, but he was a twenty-something d-bag.

Bernie, on the other hand, is a character who could have been too much. He is big and gruff, but with a heart of gold. I always find it funny to have a character with those two traits. Beyond the humor, though, it adds tension to the story because you never know if or when Bernie will snap.

The Boar runs for 96 minutes, which is the sweet spot for these types of movies. It doesn’t overstay its welcome, and it moves at a quick pace. We see a fair amount of the titular beast, but mostly in short glances. Much like in Jaws, this lack of fully seeing the beast adds to the movie’s scare factor.

Overall, I quite enjoyed this flick. The acting is solid, and there are some good tense moments. The characters have surprising depth, and the beastie looks cool for the most part. There are, of course, a few cheesy CGI shots, but nothing egregious. The ending was a tad disappointing.

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